35 weeks & 1 day

I feel like I am almost at the end of this pregnancy road trip and very close to meeting my baby which frightens and excites me at the same time. I think my fear is my ability to get through labour and delivery on my own, I think it is pressure I am putting on myself and because it is on my mind almost everyday I am finding I need more and more help to keep me grounded and relaxed about it all. I have started getting into yoga which is really helpful with all the breathing excercises involved, I find it very relaxing so I want to keep up with that as much as I can. At the end of the day I am keeping my mind completely open when it comes to pain relief as it is very difficult to determine how the whole thing is going to play out. My only real fear is that I get to the hospital because I can't handle the pain any longer and they tell my I am only 1cm dilated or something equally as depresseing, if that is the case bring on the drugs I say.

I had my baby shower on the weekend which was fantastic, I felt so spoilt and I know that baby G is already very much loved which is an amazing feeling. I am also on my second day of maternity leave which is great and I plan on getting stuck into lots of little projects around the house. I have still yet to start on the nursery which is a bit of a bugger, we are waiting on carpet so once that is down its full steam ahead. Our lounge is looking like a bit of a temporary nursery and has baby furniture and accessories all around it so I cant wait to get that cleared away in its proper spot. I have been pretty constructive and washed all baby G's clothes and sorted them into his/her wardrobe so it feels really good to have them all away in their little home. I am really looking forward to sitting in the completed nursery and getting my head around everything that is about to happen.